Letters: Risau

"Risau
melekat di hati
enggan melayang
pergi.

Dahi berkerutan
melayan kerisauan.

Bagai sepucuk surat
dilipat-lipat
diselitkan di celah
hati."

From 12 Oct 2005.

Accompanying note: Feeling worried and scared for Zane. Suddenly feeling this way. Thought about how I felt when Dad had his heart attack. The prospect of loss. I don't want to lose Zane to his cigarettes. Feel so afraid that our lives together might not be long.