Fibroids

When I was pregnant with Musa at about three months, I suffered from excruciating abdominal pains and had to be taken to the emergency room.

I thought I was losing the baby.

After the medical examination, I was told that I had multiple fibroids growing everywhere in my uterus, my cervix, behind them, etc. Like I said, they were everywhere. And they were feeding off my pregnancy hormones and getting bigger (which caused the pain) and crowding out the fetus.

When she first counselled me about my condition, I was about three months pregnant and, due to the fibroids, looking like five! She told me all the possible risks and possible pain and possible outcomes. They all involved losing the baby, losing the mother, and more unbearable pain.

I cried some tears that day...and I was scared sh*t.

There was one particular fibroid she was worried about...the one that was at my cervix. Because of its location, she wasn't sure if I would be able to have a normal delivery (as opposed to C-section). Well, as it turned out, I managed to push the baby out through the "door" as was intended.

Today, I went to see Dr. Reena again for advice. After some nine months, the fibroids were still there, big as ever.

She told me the options, none of which was appealing: let them be or take them out. With the latter choice, there was risk of hemorrhaging which could lead to a hysterectomy. Of course, if I let them be and decide to conceive again, it would be, in her own words, a "stormy pregnancy."

I'm leaning towards "not doing anything about them" because I'm too chicken. But then, would I want another baby, and if I do, will I be able to handle another difficult pregnancy?

I'm kinda at a loss here.